Tuesday, February 26, 2013

28 weeks and Growth

Hello there!!!! I hope you all are doing wonderful. Chase and I want to thank each one of you for praying for us and Brynn through out this journey. We can not get through this with out you or your prayers. We will still be asking for prayers, especially for Growth with her heart and to continue to develop properly.

So today 2/26/2012 we had several visits, One at 9:30 for a fetal ultra sound, one at 10:40 for an Echocardiagram, and the last to meet my new OB/GYN who will deliver Brynn. So today was a LONG day but actually a good day.
The Fetal ultra sound went VERY Well. You know the drill by now....Lay down, shirt up, goop on and lay there for about an hour...but this time Chase got to experience a little of the "goop" the ultra sound tech was lubing me all up and flung a huge glob of "goop" on chase! HAHAHA the look on his face was priceless...I laughed and kinda got a little satisfaction with this LOL, I told him, I am sorry but I do not feel sorry for you! HAHA.
 We got to see Brynn up close and personal. She was not shy....and just so you know...she is still a SHE! LOL Brynn is measuring perfect for gestational age. She weighs 2 lbs 13oz and has HAIR....I saw it! it was Crazy! She was waving and showing off for everyone! But the Fetal doctor said she was doing " Wonderful". YAY BLESSINGS, PRAISE GOD!
Sometimes with " Heart Babies" other things can be wrong with the baby but Brynn seems to be just perfect!

So on to our Echo- another hour long test. We really like our " Team of Doctors" they are so kind and compassionate. So after the Echo ( heart test) we go back for a consult with the Cardiologist so she can go over what they see.....the 10 minutes it takes for her to get back to us is always so nerve racking....just what to know what is going on.

Dr. Altman comes in with the echo results....." THERE HAS BEEN GROWTH" I am sorry...come again!!! I wanted to jump up and down for joy and cry at the same time. Now don't get me wrong she IS still having problems with her heart BUT THERE IS GROWTH!!!!! The Mitral valve has grown a little, the right ventricle seems to have a little better flow and the length of her left ventricle is just as long as the right ventricle...PRAISE GOD!!!! Brynn still has LONG way to go but these are big steps for what we are dealing with...I know that it's God and your prayers that are getting her there! We ask to please continue to pray for growth and for her to continue to thrive like she is!! We are staying positive with realistic expectations. BUT with GOD all is possible. She still needs the Aortic Arch to grow, the left ventricle of her heart to grow and the mitral and aortic valves to grow more but I know with the progression we had today that it can happen!

So the Appt with my new OB/GYN....I really liked him, very kind, and understanding and helpful. He actually reminds me alot of my OB/GYN...(Dr. S) so I know God is totally looking out for me when it comes to my health too!

So all in all today was a great day with wonderful blessings. Thank you again for all your prayers!

Just and FYI we will start selling shirts for Brynn in support of her and others with CHD they will say " Brynn's Faithful <3" They will be Black with white lettering and a Red heart. If you think you might want one go a head and send me a mess, or text and We will start getting them ordered $15. My goal is to have everyone wear them the day of Brynn's surgery and take a picture of it so I can show her all the people who supported her!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

It's Starting to feel Real....

So it's been a while since the last time I posted....not really to much going on right now.
We did find out we are going to deliver in the medical center at the women's pavilion attached to Texas Children's hospital. Chase and I will meet the new team of doctor's Tuesday February 26th. We will have a fetal ultra sound done and another echo cardiogram done, then we will meet the the OB/GYN that will deliver me. His name is Dr. Ivey, I have heard really good things about him.

         That being said, this past Sunday was a hard day for me for some reason, I got up and was OK, but when I got in the shower and could hear Brody talking to chase I lost it....such a flood of emotions....( does a good cry count when your in the shower?) I just kept thinking about having to be away from Brody for any period of time...I mean this little boy, my everything for 2 1/2 years has been my world...I love him so much I never want to be one day away from him and now I will be.... How do I tell him, Mommy and Daddy won't be home every night, or that sissy isn't feeling good and she will have to stay at the hospital to get better. As a parent you don't ever want to be away from your children ( breaks are nice and all but after a day or two its enough) So I am struggling with that. I know that we have an AMAZING support team and so many people have offered to help with Brody which is so nice, but it is still very hard. I don't ever what him to feel second best or neglected in any way. So please pray for peace for Chase and I with not being with Brody everyday. We have made an agreement that we will NOT go more than 48hrs with out seeing him and spending the day or night with him. If you have ever been around him...you wouldn't want to be with out him...he's just an amazing child...I know I am his mom but dang that child is one of a kind!!! Its amazing how God does things giving Brody to us first, he is so kind, and loving yet so funny and crazy...I know he is going to be the best care giver for Brynn, I am so excited to see them interact.

        So I get out of the shower and then another wave of emotions hit me...tomorrow ( Monday February 4th 2013) is my last OB visit with my AMAZING OB...I know ,who is that attached to their OB/GYN?...well I am...LOL he has been my doctor since I had Brody, he was amazing...he is a wonderful Christan man that genuinely cares for you. We had some fertility issues with Brody and he was so supportive and caring, and helpful...let alone when I gave birth, what an amazing experience that was. So yeah, I got attached to him and his nurse. His nurse so just as sweet and kind, and so personable, I couldn't ask for better care, I don't know if they will ever know what they mean to me and how much I appreciate them, you get comfortable with people who are apart of the most intimate times in your life...and knowing that they won't be there anymore ( which I know if I needed them they would be) is really hard. It makes this situation kind of seem...Real. I know it's real I have seen the pictures and talked to the Cardiologist but until you are 100% full force in the situation, you can kinda still push it to the back of your mind. This was kind of the last puzzle piece...changing doctors. So I cried again...

    By this time Chase realizes that my " poles are crossing" ( he says this when I have freak out moments and he doesn't understand why! HAHAHAHA) So the look on his face was so sweet and confused at the same time...but he didn't ask any questions he just held me and let me cry....I sure did hit the jack pot when I married him. He's my best friend...and I thank God daily for him. He has stood by me and loves me unconditionally I couldn't ask for a better Husband and father to our Children. So Chase, thank you for being there for me...I love you more than you can ever imagine, you truly are my better half!!!

 Church was GREAT....just what we needed to hear! I think obstacles are put in our way sometimes and it would be so much easier just to fall to defeat, but the God gives you that extra push that you need...THANK YOU LORD!!! I have learned through this situation so far...that God really wants you to lean on him, and take your burdens, joys and anything else you have and give them to him. He wants to be strong for you. So I am letting him

I have been pretty strong so far...and I feel really good about things and know that GOD is in control, but I know its normal to have some days where is just down right hard...I am sure I will have several of them, and I am OK with that...but I know that with God and my family and Friends we will get though this....It could always be worse....we are being blessed thorough out this entire situation and are just in awe of God's work so far.

I want to thank my Parents too: I called them Sunday night...I just really wanted to hear their voices...my mom was asleep so my Dad answered...we talked for a little bit, he said he was watching foot ball, I said I was watching Dirty Dancing...BEST MOVIE EVER!! LOL and his response was " No body puts baby in a corner" LOL this movie means so much to me...odd yes, but it does. No matter what or where my dad and Are we  can start talking about it and it brings a smile and so many memories back to me ...and not to mention the " Lift" I don't know how I didn't break my dad's back...lol we must have done that a million times...I loved this...like was obsessed with this! And my dad never complained about doing it, not once. So after we laugh and talk for a little bit, I guess he could sense something wasn't right..parent's intuition I guess...so he asks me if everything is ok....and I guess in the middle of him asking he wakes my mom up or she wakes up, but either way he knew I was fixing to need them both. AND I DID!!!!! I let them know about everything I said above and they just listen, comfort, and tell me all the right things. I truly appreciate you mom and Dad....you two are such inspirations to me, I love you so much and I am so blessed to have amazing roll models like you!!! Thank you for instilling such amazing morals in Tabitha and I ....we are who we are because of you( even though I am the favorite and much more FAB...LOL ).

 Tabitha, thank you so much for being my best friend, my go to person, the person I confide in yet YOU never judge me....I LOVE YOU  big time sissy!!!!

Thank you to all who have shown supports, called, text, FB hugged us, everything...you have no idea what angels you are to Chase and I. We ask for your prayers to continue. If you have questions please don't hesitate to ask we don't mind...really. But thank you all so much!!!!
We are excited to take this journey with you all!!!